Finding the Perfect Fit Pt. 21

Today started off pretty boring but unfucked itself by the end! So I went to class then worked, text Jamie and complained about not being able to hang out until the weekend, the usual shit. Then I got home and found Donna snugged up to someone new on the couch, a slab of man meat who looked like he traded his neck for more muscles. Dude was really nice though, making small talk as Donna gave me this smug smile, as if I was suppose to be jealous of her. I really don't care what she does but hey, hope their happy together.

I chatted with the guy who's name I forgot and then showered, flopping down on my bed, wishing Jamie was here with me. I settled for texting him and then fired off one to Min Seo, more out of boredom than anything. She responded nearly instantly, asking how I was doing. I replied honestly, bored as shit, and Jamie's text came in, saying that he was ready for the weekend already.

'Why, whatcha got in mind?' I asked him, wanting to get a feel for Jamie's mood and what to expect Friday night. It took a few minutes but he finally got back to me

'I miss everything we did together and I want to indulge.' Before I could text my agreement with him, another message came in. 'And you'd better be packing.' I grinned at that, reaching under my bed for the increasingly battered bag holding all our stuff. Dumping it out, I found the supplies direly low. One condom remained and there was maybe enough lube for one more go but I wasn't going to chance it. It's been since... So I had to scroll way the fuck up and found out January was the last time I fucked Jamie. So I gotta make this next time good.

'Be ready cause now it's my turn to be coming for that ass.' Sent that to Jamie and then replied to Min Seo, who was asking what I was doing tomorrow. I told her going to class but left out the trip to the smut store I had to make.

'Oh, is that a promise or a threat?' I laughed, responding with a simple 'both'. Picking up the dildo that had gotten quite the work out for a few months there, I once more heard the phantom memory of that woman at the counter, telling of guys who liked pegging and ended up being size queens. Jamie seriously got into it and I had no idea if he wanted more but... Maybe it's time to find out? If not now then I guess I could wait until we move in together but Jamie did say about wanting to indulge and I'm in a similar mood... Playing this one fast and loose, will figure it out once there.

So I'm eating lunch with Min Seo tomorrow, hitting up English and Math, then heading to the toy store for lube and anything else that catches my fancy. Cause Jamie told me not to spend money on clothes, not dildos!

And to think, I was bored less than thirty minutes ago. Fucking fixed that!

So the first part of today dragged on, all my teachers seeming to know I had shit to do and tried to bore me to death. But finally I got out and asked Min Seo where we were eating lunch, with her replying the McDonald's where I had been introduced to yaoi. It was close by but the place was packed when I got there. I got in line for the drive through and shot Min Seo a text, with her responding we'd eat at a nearby park. The grip of winter was finally loosening, the sun having some bite now and the first nice day of the year had arrived.

After finally getting my chicken sandwich, I broke away from the lunch hour traffic and found the park with only Min Seo's car in the lot. I parked beside her and stepped out into the wonderful sunshine, leaving my coat behind. She was already sitting at an ancient picnic table, giving a little wave as I approached. As usual, her make up was flawless, the red eye shadow pairing with her lipstick still striking. And fucking hot. She had another long shirt dress thing, this one gray with a long sleeve shirt on under it, not showing much skin but snug enough it showed enough.

"Ya were right: This is way better than being stuck inside with a buncha people." She nodded as I sat, the branches of the nearby trees bare but without the shattering cold, they looked less skeletal.

"I wanted to get out and enjoy the weather while I can." She munched on a fry as I paused in opening my McD's box, processing her words.

"Why?" I asked slowly, not coming up with any good reason to be stuck inside anymore and it was concerning.

"School?" Her tone made it clear the answer was so obvious to her it became a question aimed back at me. "Finals are coming up and I need to keep my 4.0 GPA." She took another fry as I whipped out my phone and brought up the calendar, seeing that April was coming up and May followed.

"Finals are in the middle of May, right?" Min Seo nodded as I gave up counting days. "Ya gonna fucking study for nearly two months?!" Panic broken the cage it had been trapped in, now rampaging in my head and making sure I knew failing my classes was an absolute certainty.

"Yes, in addition to working." She said calmly, as if my understanding of time hadn't just been drop kicked. A breeze blew over us, playing with Min Seo's medium length hair as I tried to calm down and breathe. Meanwhile, she was still eating fries one at a time, looking faintly amused by my revelation of how close the end of the semester was.

"Good God no wonder ya can never hang out." That got a smirk out of her as a car cruised by, rattling from absurdly loud bass and I prayed they would keep going and not pollute our limited time together. Thankfully, they passed and I finally tore into my lunch. Time had slipped by but that wasn't a bad thing. Jamie and I would have the summer to ourselves!

Chewing a mouthful of chicken I didn't taste, I paused as something brushed my foot. Min Seo's face betrayed no emotion as one of her legs slowly rubbed against mine. Another cool breeze blew but I barely noticed it, watching her face intently as our calves got very familiar with each other. Without thinking I snapped her leg between mine, not feeling the softer fabric of her yoga pants through my jeans.

"Gotcha." I said, mouth full of the sandwich I hadn't enjoyed but nearly finished by this point.

"And?" Min Seo said, a perfectly shaped eyebrow raising, as if she knew I had no plan and was only acting on impulse. What she didn't know is that the fire lurking within was looking for any excuse to break free and rage about the newly warm landscape.

Wiping my mouth, I pushed our food to the side, a different hunger now at the forefront. Letting loose of her leg, I clamored to sit on the tabletop, towering over Min Seo, who still didn't look impressed. Leaning closer, I took my time, the building fire making demands that couldn't be done in public. I saw hesitation on her face but before I could ask, she rose to meet my lips.

Min Seo was warm and soft, not insistent but content. I grabbed at my legs to keep my hands from roaming, remembering Jamie's words even though I wanted so much more than what amounted to a stolen kiss during school hours.

Sitting back down, face red, Min Seo checked her phone and sighed. "Need to leave soon." She looked back up at me with an expression I couldn't quite read. It might have been want or regret or just confusion, I had no idea. "But not yet." Chuckling, I swung my legs off the table and picked up the McD's box, walking over to a nearby trash can and tossing it inside, if only to clear my head.

It was only a few steps back but she was already on her feet, leaning against the table and still without her usual cool composure. Min Seo's arms crossed under her breasts, the breeze playing with her hair as she looked at a passing car.

"What to do you want?" I asked, not sure where the words came from but I was glad to have them out. Her body language wasn't one of wanting another kiss but guarded, the classic 'I don't want to be here' pose. "Cause I don't know what to give you. I dunno if ya wanna make out or play footies or doll me up or what! Just, tell me so I can give ya whatcha want!" I backed off, realizing I was edging towards shouting. With nearly anyone else, I could get a read on them but Min Seo's emotions were under lock and key.

A flat stare greeted my outburst, Min Seo seeming to constrict while saying nothing.

"Well?" I gestured at everything and nothing, hands hanging in the air as Min Seo sighed, arms unfolding and hanging at her side.

"Do you really want to know?" Her voice was wasn't quite clogged with tears but close, making me regretting opening my mouth.

"Yes. Please." I said, voice softening as Min Seo stared at the ground and refused to look up as she started to speak.

"I want to do another cosplay project, to help someone look their best. I want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay. I... I want to fall in love without being scared." Eyes teaming with years, Min Seo looked up at me, face on the verge of collapsing into absolute sorrow. Without thought, my specialty, I closed the distance between us and took her in my arms. She was shaking and I held her closer, feeling tears dropping on my chest but not minding.

"It's going to be okay." I put a hand on the back of her head, Min Seo's hair soft and silky, straight unlike Jamie's messy curls. "It's gonna be okay." She stayed there for some time, for as long as she needed. For the first time, I knew exactly what she wanted and could provide at least one of her heart's desires.

"Thank you." I let loose as she stepped back, wiping her eyes and smearing her immaculate make up. "I..." Averting her gaze, Min Seo fell quiet but I took one of her hands, letting her know I was still there, supporting her. "...I miss Joo Won." I had to desperately search my memory for who that was and the picture of a hot Korean woman with a damn good smile and showing lots of leg came up, then yoai, then McDonald's.

"M' sorry." It's all I could say really, not having met the guy who seriously looked like a chick before.

"Thank you. For this." She squeezed my hand and pulled me closer so I wrapped her up in a hug again but she didn't stay there nearly as long. "I still want to help you with cosplay when there is time." I wanted to mention Jamie, cause he would have been a Hell of a project for her to tackle but let the moment slide by. He wasn't a thing to be used, even if it was in the service of helping someone else. At least, not without his consent.

"Sure. Probably during summer so school isn't breathing down our necks." Min Seo leaned against me, nice and warm but her hands started to roam, sliding down my hips and circling around back. "Ahh..." Stepping back, I raised my hands and regretted not staying there with her. But I'd promising Jamie kissing only and knew even that was a luxury.

"Right, sorry." Her rosebud lips twitched into a smile and she smoothed out the front of her shirt dress thing. "Thank you Gen."

"Of course." I wanted to give her some more hope, to say I'd talk with Jamie and see if anything else could be worked out but instead I walked over, took her in my arms and kissed her like we were posing for the cover of a romance novel. Min Seo couldn't cop any feels but that was no excuse for me to not kiss her until she was cross eyed. Her light, approving moan was muffled, seeing how my tongue had slipped into her mouth.

By the time I hauled Min Seo back upright, she was gasping for air, eyes wide and stunned. I became aware of something off to the right and turned, seeing a fit middle aged guy in exercise clothes jogging in place, looking at us with naked admiration. I made a shooing gesture and he turned red, quickly running off as Min Seo got herself straightened out.

"Wow." I grinned at hearing her still being breathless.

"Feeling better?" She nodded and I checked the time on my phone, Min Seo hurrying to the table and doing the same. I was close to being late for my next two classes I didn't give a shit about and the urge to find something, anything else to do was very strong.

"I have to leave. I..." The letter was drug out as she went looking for the rest of the sentence. "...I wouldn't mind doing that again." That made me laugh as Min Seo dumped her trash and gave me one last hug before getting in her car and departing. I unlocked my car and sat down, taking a deep breath before firing it up and heading back to the college. Min Seo was gone and the adult toy store was open all day, there was no good reason for me to skip classes this close to the end.

"Fuck." I sighed, my blood cooling from the boiling point it had been at with Min Seo in my arms. Still, I turned the radio up and let the music fill my head, not able to push out my reluctance to go back to class. Made it back in time and despised each moment but knew the end was in sight and this wasn't going to be forever. Still felt like forever though.

Once I was free for the day I hopped in my car and once more the radio was cranked up, playing what I thought was a MegaDeth song but I rocked out to it no matter who it was. Cause now I was heading off to grab something for Jamie and while it was still Wednesday, I had something to look forward to on the weekend instead of working. Driving there, braving the traffic, I didn't want to get my hopes up but the echo of the cashier returned, the pounding music not quite drowning it out.

By the time I got there, my windows were down and the fresh air turned out to have more bite at fifty miles per hour and I was chilled. The sun was still shining and the place didn't look quite as skeevy. Sure, given the cracked pavement and dirty glass, it'd never be classy but at least it looked less like a murder scene and more inviting.

Opening the door, the first thing that caught my eye was a female shaped mannequin sporting wood along with black leather wrist restraints with metal loops hanging off of them. It was an odd mix and distracted me until a voice asked to see my ID. Shaking back to reality, I dug my driver's license and handed it over to the lady behind the counter, a different one than last time. Tall and lean, she handed my ID back and told me to ask if I had any questions.

First off, I headed towards the wall of dildos. The one Jamie was familiar with was six inches long and looking about, it would be easy to find an upgrade here. The question was how far did I want to push my luck and his butt. I started browsing, finding there was little organization and I had to check each box to see length. Girth was another thing listed there and that made me think, the heat around my stomach starting to simmer. Sure, Jamie wasn't huge but he filled me up good and I had to make sure he got the same experience.

Plus, there was the matter of color as a sneaky idea started to take hold. Why tell Jamie I had something new for him? The thing I'd discovered about writing from the limited research I'd done was to show, not tell. So I'd grab a purple dildo and see if Jamie noticed any difference. If not, well, he'd probably find out when it went it.

My face was hot, having seen a flash of Jamie on his back, legs spread for me and forcing that image away was harder than going back to class. I had to find a new dick for him and that required a clear head! Not one fogged over like my car windows when I'd rode his dick or he blew my current dildo...

Taking forefinger and thumb, I pinched the webbing between those two digits on the other hand, the pain bright and urgent. A deep breath and I resumed looking with purpose. I started checking boxes that showed purple dicks, picking up a few and checking the back, finding the lengths were somewhat deceptive in that half an inch was taken for the base and the rest was referred to as the 'usable length'. Having learned something, my classes failed to do that, I found seven inches of usable length in purple with veins on the surface and shaped very similarly to the one I had.

Plus, with me already having a harness, I didn't have to drop nearly as much money. With dick in hand, I went to the lube and picked up another bottle of the cherry. Condoms was the only thing left but I went about the store, just checking out what they had. The door opened and let in a thirty something woman who appeared to be a regular, striking up a conversation with the cashier.

Their 'clothing' selection was interesting, with nearly all of it being fetish focused cause of course it was. Even with Jamie requesting I don't buy him anything, I just wanted an idea of what was out there for later. Most of it was cheap and they had quite the selection of maid dresses, with short frilly skirts and fishnet stockings. Having typed that down, I'm going to use this as a reminder to ask Jamie if he's into maids. Or wants to be a maid and get banged by the woman of the house. Or man.

Oh God the weekend can't get here fast enough! I found and bought two garters, white to go along with Jamie's stockings and belt. I paid for my stuff and tore the tags off the garter, intending on telling Jamie that I'd found them. Yeah, it might be dishonest to not tell him I'm going to be packing an extra inch but it's more of a surprise rather than any betrayal of trust.

Been texting Jamie while writing my day down and while we both work Friday, we should be able to shower and fuck ourselves senseless after. I'm excited and horny enough to give one of my growing dildo horde a ride, maybe even test out the new one...

These past few days have been a fucking drag. School sucks, work sucks and being outside is one of the few things that distracts me from how slowly time is moving until Jamie and I can hang out and boink. Huh, I didn't think Spellcheck would recognize boink as a word. Neat.

I plowed through class and work today, then showered and got everything ready for Jamie to come over. I'm typing to pass the time, having already done my make up and am wearing sexy stuff under my clothing. Jamie's running late cause his Dairy Queen is doing good business with the weather being nicer. And a text just came in, he's close to being done. So long journal, I'll be back with the good stuff later!

Holy Christ, that happened. Alright, I'll recounting this the best I can.

I had to wait in the parking lot for bout 20 minutes until Jamie came bursting out of the backdoor, running to my car when I waved out of my open window.

"Get me the fuck outta here!" Firing up the engine, I got us rolling as Jamie clicked his seatbelt on and started surfing radio stations. I drove past cars still in the parking lot with people still inside, all the lights still on.

"Wait, are ya not closed?" Jamie snorted, turning up a rock song that was familiar but I didn't know the name of.

"I am! I'mma fucking cook and the kitchen is clean but those fucking assholes won't leave!" Cranking the volume to earsplitting levels, Jamie slapped the dashboard and threw his head back, screaming tonelessly along with the song. "Sorry!"

"Now I'm curious how you'd fuck angry." That got a snort of laughter out of him.

"I need to calm down. I just, today was fucked and then the customers wouldn't leave and kept ordering shit after we'd closed." A deep breath and Jamie changed the station when the song ended and commercials came on. More browsing and he found a slower, softer one to replace it. "I need tonight."

"Same here" I took one of his hands and we cruised back in the spring darkness with the windows down and music blaring. Looking back on it, that might have very well been a scene from a movie, it was so essential. The young couple driving around at night, looking to get it on, as American as apple pie and student loans.

"What is this song?" I asked over the noise, partially wanting to know and hoping to distract him from what sounded like a frustrating night. He gave me a comical look and increased the volume even more as a familiar voice I couldn't place sang on, the guitar just as tantalizingly escaping me. The tempo picked up slightly and the voice completely changed, the pitch ramping way up as I let loose of Jamie's hand, tapping his leg as the band's name was on the tip of my tongue, clinging there but unable to be spat out.