Why I'm a Sissy

It's been a long journey, but I still remember the first time I slowly sunk to my knees to suck a pulsing cock into my mouth, as a sissy faggot cocksucker. As I made love to a beautiful 10 inch rock hard cock, little did I know that "cock" would come to play such an important part of my life. Bobbing on an engorged hard cock, struggling to get as much of his cock down my throat, I remember the feelings of submission and anticipation as I was about to swallow my first load of cum.

Locked in the novel throws of sissy submission, I still remember the slow and deliberate mouthing of "Daddy" to my captor. My very first Daddy...it was complete sissy bliss!! Once he exploded in my mouth and throat, I was overwhelmed with the feelings of shame and humiliation, but more importantly, I loved the idea of pleasing an alpha, submitting to a man. Oh...sweet submission!!

So, after so many years of sucking cock, I'm struck by the idea of why I'm a sissy, essentially what drives me to suck cock, bend over and flip my skirt up right before I'm fucked up the ass and why I live to feel the warmth of my Daddy's cum fill my sissy holes, as he screams out in masculine domination and satisfaction.

My thoughts, without question, bring me first to something that drives just about all of my beautiful, pink sissiness...submission.

Submission feeds my soul and means so much to me but it comes in many forms, but it starts with the surrender of my sissy mouth:

- the first kiss and violation of my mouth, as my Daddy aggressively drives his tongue deep into my mouth, searching out every corner of my welcoming accomodating hole, a sissy hole that will be used in so many more disgusting and degrading ways,

- as were sitting next to each other, the slow and cagy game of seduction as my Daddy directs my small and delicate hands to his jeans and his hardening huge erection, knowing that as I rub and massage this cock, it will soon be down my throat and deep inside my ass,

- the slow and deliberate act of kneeling before my Daddy, never breaking eye contact, feeling so small, paying special attention to his nipples on the way down his muscular and hairy chest, knowing that once on my knees, his cock will soon penetrate all of my sissy holes,

- kneeling and settled at the feet of my strong alpha, looking up into his dominant and piercing eyes, the eyes of a powerful animal with a one track mind, knowing that I control his cock, knowing that I caused this huge throbbing erection to reach its pinnacle of hardenness, and that I will bring it to completion in my sissy mouth,

- the incessant licking, bobbing and slurping on his 10 inches of pulsing erection, his large and calloused hands on the back of my head, gagging and struggling to satisfy my Daddy, surrendering my mouth to his ever increasing thrusts to get his cock deep deep down my throat, my eyes reddened and watering, my black mascare running from my eyes, begging for the continued assault on my mouth and throat, my mouth slobbering all over his hardened member, hoping I can fully please my Daddy,

- tasting the addicting flavor of my Daddy's cock, knowing that he almost always takes his wife's pussy before taking my mouth, I smell and sample her sweet pussy juices, mixed with his salty cum, that envelops his penis, except on the rare occasions when my Daddy holds me tight and whispers in my ear "I fucked her ass this morning," sending shivers of excitement through my body, knowing he gets the special treat of making me taste the pungent overpowering flavor of his wife's ass, as he never cleans his cock after sex with the wife...that's my duty as a submissive bottom,

- the beautiful surrender as his throbbing cock finally releases his vile and viscous seed, with pulse after pulse of slimy and nasty cum down my throat, into my mouth, and finally all over my face, tasting the salty and disgusting flavor of his searing hot cum on my tongue, holding it in my sissy mouth, displaying the huge load to my Daddy before he sternly directs me to "swallow it bitch," never breaking eye contact with my captor.

If swallowing my Daddy's cum is the initial surrender, taking him deep inside my asspussy is the ultimate mind blowing surrender. It's submission at its pinnacle and deeply fulfilling for a sissy cocksucker. After swallowing my Daddy's virile seed deep into my belly, cleaning my Daddy's cock, I know taking his seed into my ass is what he next expects and demands from his sissy cocksucker.

Taking his cock deep into my sissy cunt is the crowing jewel of my submission to my Daddy and it starts with a smile and playful patting of my ass as I lay next to him, still savoring the powerful flavor of his cum in my mouth. I know this ritual and it's the next step in my dance with submission and always ends with me getting fucked hard up the ass:

- spooning with my Daddy, I feel his member beginning to rouse after taking my mouth and throat, he wraps his huge and powerful arms around my body, focusing on my tender and very sensitive nipples, nipples that connect my mind to my sissy clitty and ass, his cock is now beginning to rub up and through my ass crack,

- my Daddy's first stop is standing me up, prepping me and forcing me to bend over as he generously lubes my ass and manpussy, preparing me for a deep penetration, and then he's three knuckles deep before I can gasp at the violation of my most secret place, wrapping his other arm around my chest, he slowly pulls me upright, slightly choking me, while driving his fingers deep into my ass pussy, he whispers "Is my baby doll ready to take her Daddy?" - he knows I'm ready as my sissy hole clenches around his fingers and I let out a slow soft femimine whimper...I'm ready to give my Daddy my sissy soul.

- I'm forced to my hands and knees, my ass exposed and approbatory, ready for the painful assault that will take my Daddy to a very special place, playful and stern ass slaps let me know the penetration nears a beginning, he slowly but diligently pushes up against my tender rosebud, my softest, most protected, feminine hole and then he's breached the entrance, taking me to another place, deeper and deeper, hooking my mouth with the three ass deep fingers, he begins to really fuck me,

- finally feeling the fullness of a balls deep penetration, his strong firm hands on my hips driving hard into my asspussy, torn between a ripping and tearing pain and complete sissy satisfaction, my Daddy lovingly kisses me, exploring my mouth as he slowly pushes and pulls his pulsing hardened cock in and out of my manpussy, he mouths the words that take me to another level of sissyhood, "Sabrina, it's time to earn Daddy's seed," and after having heard these fateful words over and over in the past, I know it's time for my Daddy to fuck to cum, as the penetrations become longer and harder, deeper and deeper into places that I didn't even know existed, slamming away with the sound of flesh and slippery slurping fucking, it's almost time for my Daddy to finish,

- in a swift act of masculine domination, he flips me onto my back, without leaving my sissy cunt, pins my legs against my chest, my ankles behind my ears with my sissy anklets dangling at my ears, my black buckle Mary Janes flailing above his shoulders, pounding and pounding, choking me with a strong grip around my soft throat, I whimper and moan at each deep, deeper and deepest penetration, and then it happens, the unmistakable howl of a wild violent animal reaching the pinnacle of orgasm, pulse after pulse of his hot virile cum filling my rectum, melding with my juices, absorbing into the walls of my ass, forever becoming a part of my soul.

And then it's done. His cock slowly softening, his cum and small smatterings of my rectal blood slowly trickling from my violated sissy hole, and the warmth of my Daddy holding me tight, protected and completely satisfied with his sissy bitch. He rolls over and of course I know what's next as my Daddy mouths "Clean me bitch," as I complete the duty of a good sissy bottom and completely clean his cock and balls, savoring and hating the pungent mixed taste of his potent cum and my sissy ass. All to please my alpha.

Sissy submission...a uniquely feminine experience and so extremely fullfilling, but its nothing without the powerful companioning feelings of shame and humiliation that come from deeply degrading, demeaning and disgusting sexual acts. Its these sexual acts for my Daddy that I don't savor, things I don't look forward to, sexual acts that only a depraved sissy would perform, all things I regret, but that I know drive my Daddy over the fucking top...all things that create a deep sense of shame and humiliation at the hands of my Daddy and they come in many different forms:

- submissively kneeling at the powerful snap of my Daddy's fingers, shamefully lowering my eyes, less than worthy of looking into my Daddy's eyes, blushing when presented with my Daddy's throbbing cock, slowly leaning forward to lick off the slimy nasty pearl of pre-cum from my Daddy pulsing erection, and it's not limited to my Daddy as he freely shares me with his friends,

- the slow hand in hand walk of shame into a restaurant, dressed as the sophisticated docile sissy my Daddy expects, 34DD breasts with supple nipples proudly displayed by my well concealed breastplate, high heeled stilettos, a skinny black dress, black sheer thigh high panty hose, a black lace choker (the marker that I belong to someone), a full and flowing brunette wig with a few well placed pink bows, I belong to my Daddy and he wants everyone to know it,

- the monthly poker game with my Daddy's friends, my black sissy maid dress, with all the frills, sissy chastity cage and huge vibrating anal plug, accenting my soft subservient cosplay, dressed to please all of them, inevitable sucking and bareback fucking at the direction of my Daddy, squealing and whimpering in my most feminine high pitched voice at the mercy of some of the biggest of Daddy's black friends, filled at the end of the night with multiple loads of nasty manly spunk (especially some very highly intoxicating black cum) in my belly, my ass and all over my face,

- the casual blowjobs for my Daddy's friends, with each one being unique, one of his friends is over for a lazy afternoon of football and beers, they're both entertained by the game until halftime and then its time for the half time entertainment, dressing for the part of a nasty street whore, (34DD breastplate, hooker heels, black and red schoolgirl plaid skirt, thigh high black lace pantyhose and an observable pink cock cage, with a brunette wig set in pigtails and pink bows) I seductively enter the room, twirl and slowly lower myself to all fours as I crawl to my Daddy and his friend on the couch, unlatch their pants and slowly start to stroke both of their hardening cocks until they both explode in beautiful masculine intensity deep down my throat and mouth, but not before I desperately beg them "Cum for me Daddy, let me taste it!!," and being the good whore, I capture all of the slimy salty cum and lick both of these cocks to a shiney clean,

- kneeling before my Daddy wildly masturbating, before he takes my ass, seeking to expunge me of my cum and any slutty horniness the might cloud my coming sissy submissive experience with my Daddy, catching my cum in my small delicate hands (adorned with wildly hot pink nails), while my Daddy is mouthing "Come for Daddy" over and over again, slurping the hot trickle of watery sissy cum into my mouth, swishing it around in my mouth, never breaking eye contact with my Daddy, eagerly awaiting his magical and disciplined words, "swallow it all bitch," only intense sissy training allows me to finish this degrading act after my explosive cum shot deprives me of all the slutty horniness of a satisfying edging session,

- anal plugs, vibrating plugs, cock rings, clitty cage, nipple clamps, a black collar with a large metal sissy ring that's usually attached to a leash, all of the toys my Daddy uses to reinforce my submission, to force me to remember my place as his pliant and receptive fuck toy with sissy holes that only exist to provide him pleasure,

- a long blowjob in my Daddy's truck, dressed like a sissy whore, locked on his hardened erection, my sissy pussy filled with a huge vibrating anal plug, rocking at full intensity, as I bob and suck anticipating a full release of his seed into my sissy mouth, but not before we stop at the drive-thru for some food, Daddy's ordering while I'm focused on his complete satisfaction and release, up to the window and I continue to suck, slurp, and bob, all under the watchful eye of the shocked but engaged attendant, until we leave the drive-thru and Daddy needs to pull over because he's reached the apex of his orgasm and explodes deep into my sissy mouth, filling it with a mixture of hot slimy cum, my saliva and precum.

- locked in my favorite hard doggy-style fucking, facing a full length mirror, with Daddy pulling my hair and forcing my head back, with a vision of my gaping mouth, cock crazed eyes and grimaced face reflecting both the ectasy and searing pain of a good balls deep hard anal fuck,

- all of my performances are marked by the incessant name calling, with my Daddy using his best descriptive names to help me understanding my place: sissy cocksucker, faggot, cum slut, cunt, cum dumpster, sissy princess, anal whore,

- starting on my back with a powerful face to face anal fuck, with my Daddy slowly lifting my small body with his arms around my back, I loop my arms around his neck and my legs around his back and it happens, I'm lifted and impaled completely on my Daddy's rock hard dick, pistoning reckessly deep into my anal cavity, as he casually walks around the room, rising and slamming my body over and over onto his diamond hard erection, all the while he's raping my mouth with his powerful tongue until I scream out "Cum inside me!! Make me your whore," he slams me down deep onto his cock, howling like a wild animal experiencing a spine shivering orgasm, and dumps a searing hot load of 5 days of cum deep deep inside my ass,

- ladies night, which invariably means Daddy's black friends are going to have a no holes barred gangbang with me as the star, all 5 large black friends have huge 7 to 10 inch beer can cocks and endless stamina, these nights typically means sucking all of them to a slimy completion, an extremely sore jaw from the never ending attempts to ram all their hardened inches of cock down my throat, a stretched, gaped and bloodied sissy asshole from the multiple rounds of deep deep hard anal sex and unending attempts to double penetrate my soft and delicate manpussy, and finally the sissy bliss of feeling loads and loads of potent dominating black cum absorbing deep inside my belly and ass, impregnated and inseminated to carry all of their beautiful black seeds forever,

- ass to mouth and pissing, easily the most demeaning and degrading things I can perform for my Daddy, its the height of depravity, he knows I don't like it and only do it to satisfy my Daddy, they're signature acts of being a highly submissive sissy cocksucker, with a commitment to do anything...and I mean "anything" to satisfy my Daddy.

All of these deeply shameful and humiliating acts heighten and complete my sissy experience. Degrading and demeaning experiences that fulfill my essence as a docile feminine fuck toy for my Daddy.

All of these feelings are finally accented by how I present myself to my Daddy. The clothing only finishes my desire to be a pliant, receptive crossdressing sissy princess for my Daddy. It's the complete package and I go to great lengths to give my Daddy the "look" that drives him mad: slutty, submissive, soft, feminine, docile, attractive, slender, polished, alluring, seductive...all of it.

Most of the time, it's meant to create the look of his wife, Lauren, who long ago stopped trying to completely satisfy my Daddy, but at times its centered around my Daddy's latest fantasy, women from his everyday experiences, the secretary with tight form fitting clothes and low cut blouses, the lady in the commercial with the tight runner's ass, the lady at the dry cleaner with large tits and protruding nipples, some of his friend's wives, his friend's twenty something daughter with the A cup tits and tight tight ass, a lady at the gym with spandex leggings, just about anywhere, and of course all fantasies. And of course, he shares all of these fantasies so I can give him as much of the fantasy as possible.

This fantasy look is built on a number of sissy choices:

- lace drives a lot of my look, black/white/pink/lavender lace panties, always with a pink bow on the front, sometimes with words stitched onto the front, with words like "I Love Anal," "Daddy's Girl," "Sissy Princess," "Cocksucker," "I Suck Cock" and "Anal Whore,"

- a snug breastplate, with 34DD tits, soft and supple pinchable nipples that remain erect slightly above the apex of my breast, large and pronounced, easily my most captivating feature as I enter a room, proudly displaying these feminine mounds of joy as I prance around for all to see,

- a lace bra, with the style depending upon my Daddy's mood and the type of dress he wants me to wear, a bra to capture my 34DD tits and announce my entrance into any room,

- my first bra, and labeled as such on the seam, something I always wear under my breastplate to stimulate my erect nipples with the incredible sensation of lace rubbing across them, more of a training bra, for my small supple super sensitive nipples, that serve as a crossroads, connecting my clitty and sissy soul,

- a full length soft slip, with a length that ends at the small curve where my tight firm ass meets my long slender legs, usually pink with thin shoulder straps and a variety of words on the front, with my favorite being "Sissy Princess," because it's my Daddy's favorite, where he loves to slowly let the shoulder straps fall and uncover my completely nude sissy body, a body that reflects a well toned little girl, with soft supple A cup tits and nipples, an undistiguishable clitty and a well grommed landing strip,

- baby doll slips, with a few of my favorite colors (pink, lavender, navy blue, white and black), with sheer materials so my Daddy can faintly see my small girlish tits and nipples and my small patch of clitty and a landing strip,

- whore heels, whether its Mary Janes, reflecting a schoolgirl look or stilettos with straps and 3 inch heels, reflecting a street hooker look, they're all judged based on how they'll look lodged on my Daddy's shoulders during a hard face to face anal fuck,

- and finally, my wigs finishes off the look, it's always focused on the look of his wife, Lauren or someone he's encountered, that's been the attention of his latest fantasies, whether its full long flowing hair or a short pixie cut, or even his favorites, a ponytail or pig tails with soft pink bows, its all to drive him over the top.

And, so this is why I'm a sissy cocksucking faggot. I live to please my Daddy and to feel the indescribable power of submission, shame and humiliation. All feelings that drive me to to unspeakable sexually satisfying, degrading and demeaning acts, all with the purpose of fulfilling my submissive sissy life and making my Daddy happy.